So since we last “spoke” I received a job offer at B’s office. A job I have been secretly stalking. A job that has huge potential. A job that I’m still not sure I want to take. We decided before E came along that I would stay at home for at least a year, maybe more. So far it’s been awesome but honestly, it sure can get mundane. I know when she gets older and the weather gets nicer that it will all change.
There are pros and cons to every situation. The pros to this job:
Huge growth potential, extra “not necessarily needed” income, no break in my resume, ability for us to afford a house even more, a chance for E to become used to being with other people. I’m sure there are others that escape my mind at this point.
Cons:
Obviously missing out on E’s infant years (esp if we plan on only having one), chances of her getting sick more are much greater, it’s a temporary two yr position, I have to find daycare. I’m sure there are others for this too.
I can walk away at anytime, of course, if it just doesn’t work for me. I can have every other Friday off which is super nice and there are plenty of days B has off in a month. It’s not a hard job at all and I know I can handle it. But will I regret it when E is walking and I missed rolling over and crawling? Why, when I don’t have to work, am I seeking it out? When so many women who want to stay home, can’t, why am I throwing this oppurtunity away? Or am I?
Someone make this decision for me. When I look at my little girl I say no to this job but when I think of potential down the road, I have to say yes…ugh
